THE GENESIS OF MY AWARENESS

Artwork: "Wonder", Alex Grey, 1996 (source)
THE GENESIS OF MY AWARENESS 

1 In the beginning,
before words or memories,
there was a Great Mystery:
a raging wildfire of bodies 
burning westward,
which breathed the spark of life upon
my body and my mind

2 And my mind was without form and void
Darkness was upon the face of my mind,
and the second Great Mystery of My Awareness 
moved over the face of my mind

3 And My Awareness said:
let there be light
and some of the darkness was different

4 And I saw that this difference was light
and that it was good
and my mind separated the light from the darkness

5 And I called the light: certainty
and the darkness I called: fear
And in the evening,
when the light faded
I became afraid
Because I did not know if the light would return
And in the morning,
when the light returned,
I saw that my fear 
was the shadow of my desire 
for the light
and it was good
My first emotion on my first day

6 And I said:
let there be an expanse in the midst of my mind,
and let it separate my mind from my mind

7 And my mind made the expanse 
and separated my perceptions 
which were under the expanse 
from my imagination 
which was above the expanse
and it was so

8 And I called my imagination: Self
And when the evening came,
and the light faded,
I again became afraid
Yet there was still light in my imagination
and it was good
And I called this light of my imagination: hope
My second emotion on my second day

9 And I said:
let my imagination be gathered together unto My Awareness
and dry land appeared
and it was so

10 And I called the dry land: earth
and the gathering together of the waters I called: the seas
and I saw that it was good

11 And I looked closer at the earth,
and it had grass
And closer still,
I saw the herb 
yielding seed
And closer still,
I saw the fruit tree,
yielding fruit after its kind,
whose seed is in itself
And I saw that looking closer was good
And I called this third emotion: wonder

13 And the evening and the morning were the third day of my third emotion

14 And I looked closer at the sky
and there were lights in the sky
to divide the day from the night
And I saw in them signs, 
and seasons, 
and days, 
and years

15 And I saw that the lights in the sky
gave light upon the earth
and I was filled with wonder

16 And I looked closer at the lights 
and there were two Great Lights: 
the greater light to rule the day, 
which I called: the sun
and the lesser light to rule the night
which I called: the moon
And I looked closer at the night sky, 
and there were smaller lights,
which I called: the stars
And it was good

17 And I saw that the sky gave light upon the earth

18 Which ruled over the day,
and over the night,
and divided the light from the darkness
And I became certain that the light is always with me,
and my fear subsided,
and it was good
And I called this fourth emotion: love

19 And the evening and the morning were the fourth day of my fourth emotion

20 And I looked closer at the seas, 
and there were abundant moving creatures that had life
And looking closer at the sky,
there were birds that flew above the earth
in the open expanse far above

21 And I looked closer at the sea creatures
and there were great whales,
and fish that swim 
and strange creatures that move,
which the waters brought forth abundantly,
all after their kind
And I saw that it was good

22 And I blessed them saying:
be fruitful and multiply
and fill the waters in the seas
and let the living creatures multiply on the earth
And I was filled with love for them 	 
and I desired to be good unto them	 
and I desired to share goodness with them
and it was good
And I called this fifth emotion: grace

23 And the evening and the morning were the fifth day of my fifth emotion

24 And I looked closer,
and the earth brought forth living creatures:
cattle, 
and creeping things,
and beasts of the earth,
all after their kind
And it was so

25 And I looked closer, 
and the beasts of the earth were made after their kind, 
and cattle after their kind, 
and everything that creeps upon the earth
all after their kind
and I saw that it was good

26 And I happened upon still waters,
and in the reflection looked closer at my own body, 
and my body was made in the image of my kind, 
after their likeness
and I realized nothing prevented my kinds' dominion 
over the fish of the sea, 
and over the birds of the air, 
and over the cattle, 
and over all the earth, 
and over every creeping thing that creeps upon the earth

27 So was my body created in the image of the Great Mystery,
and my mind in the image of the second Great Mystery of My Awareness,
mother and father after their kind

28 And I blessed my reflected face
and I said unto Self:
be fruitful and multiply, 
and replenish the earth, 
and hold it carefully 
Watch over the fish of the sea, 
and the birds of the air, 
and over every living thing that moves upon the earth

29 And I said to Self:
behold,
I have seen the finding of every herb bearing seed,
which is upon the face of all the earth, 
and every tree, 
in which is the fruit of a tree yielding seed
and every living creature of the sea or the earth
To you it shall be to choose: sustenance or grace

30 And to every beast of the earth,
and to every creature in the sea,
and to every bird of the air,
and to every living thing that creeps upon the earth, 
as all living things are nourished by life,
it is for them to choose: sustenance or grace
and it was so

31 And I saw all these were emanations of Great Mystery
And I was filled with Great Desire to look closer,
yet looking closer at Great Mystery
yielded no certain form or cause or purpose
And I was filled with Great Fear of not-knowing
And the moon eclipsed the sun,
and the darkness danced with my desire,
and mystery became a mirror for forms
And I was filled with Great Fear and Wonder of what-could-be
and I wept and I shook
and behold, it was very good
and I called this emotion: mystery

32 And I was overcome by mystery
and I surrendered my mind to mystery
and I spoke stories unto Self,
and forms and causes and purpose,
which transmuted my Great Fear
and it was good
Thus my imagination was ready
for my emotions and my perceptions of my life to come
And My Awareness the gentle host of them all
And the evening and the morning were the sixth day of my sixth emotion

33 And on the seventh day I ended my work which I had begun
and I rested on the seventh day from all my work

34 And I blessed the seventh day,
and raised it above the other days
And I sat in silence
and I was filled with love
and wonder
and grace
and mystery
and fear
and hope
And my emotions and my perceptions transformed my imagination
And it was good
And I called this emotion: gratitude
And the evening and the morning were the seventh day of my seventh emotion

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